When I miss you

you are (still) my favorite mistake.

i miss us.

When we're gonna prove 'em wrong, together.

They laughed at me and asked, "What do you see in him?" So I just smiled back and said, "Everything you don't." (:

When good tracks meet good plot

I always fell for movie with a good soundtrack. I just love those indie-band's music and lyrics.

good plot, good actor/actress, plus good tracks equal GREAT movie.

Daydream nation is not another teen movie. If Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist is one of your favorite movie, then you should watch it!

one of good quote from this movie:

"things don't need to last forever to be perfect."

When Mr. President Obama visit Indonesia

source: http://www.america.gov/st/texttrans-english/2010/November/20101109213225su0.4249035.html

after effect: yes, young generation can! reminding how great Indonesia is. Thank you, Mr. Obama.

terkadang

terkadang, lo cuma butuh teman untuk mendengarkan cerita lo, yang ngalor-ngidul enggak jelas kronologisnya dan cenderung bertema sama selama 3 bulan terakhir.

terkadang, lo cuma butuh seseorang untuk menemani lo menangis, tanpa berkomentar apa-apa.

terkadang, lo cuma butuh tepukan di punggung, bukan kata-kata "tuh kan udah gue bilang apa dari dulu."

terkadang, lo cuma butuh pelukan simpati, bukan judgement pribadi.

terkadang, lo cuma butuh obrolan ringan yang bikin ngakak, bukan yang membutuhkan pengetahuan super.

Well, I'm 21 already.

happy belated 21st bornday to me! wish everything gets better and better. God bless me!

I got three celebration: kidnapping, torturing, and having lunch with besties.


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first, kidnapping.
where: to Gantole, Puncak. a place full of city-lights and stars. I am loving it!
who: jo, tepen, aris, yulya, epin, addi, and dhanny.



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second, torturing.
where: campus. so-called pond in the middle of.. campus!
who: a LOT!



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third, having lunch.
where: Cork & Screw, Plaza Indonesia
who: angel, yun, na, owi, putra.



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thank you for being there, guys!
*hugs*


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I'm a twenty something and I'll keep being me..



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When you love someone

sebelum baca post ini, mungkin ada baiknya jika anda mendengarkan When You Love Someone nya Endah n Rhesa dan menyimak kata-katanya. uhm atau mau lebih gampang si, search aja di google untuk liriknya. hehe.

saya tidak lagi jatuh cinta. tapi untuk orang-orang yang sedang jatuh cinta, khususnya mereka yang jatuh cinta diam-diam (ups) lagu EnR itu sih sangat memotivasi untuk menyatakan perasaan. tapiiii pada kenyataan nya gak semudah itu kan?

kalo orang yang lo taksir itu sebenernya juga naksir lo balik mah gak masalah. malah bagus dong. lo suka, dia suka, lo bilang suka, dia seneng, lo seneng, jadian deh. simple dan (semoga) hepi ending.

nah, kalo orang yang lo taksir itu bahkan tidak tahu sama sekali keberadaan lo, bahkan gak tau nama lo, masa tiba2 lo bilang "hai, selama ini gue selalu memperhatikan lo. gue suka ama lo. pacaran yuk." (okei, emang gak sesimpel ini sih, tapi intinya gitu deh :p) bisa-bisa lo disangka pervert yang selama ini ngikutin dia dari jauh, poto dia diam2, dan hal aneh lainnya yang bisa dituduhkan kepada lo.

dan yang paling ribet *menurut saya* adalah ketika lo suka ama orang yang selama ini temen main lo atau bahkan sahabat lo sendiri. nah loh. okei kalo lo suka dan dia juga suka, jadian lah kalian dengan bahagia dan bisa deh bersenandung "lucky i'm in love with my best friend" nya Jason Mraz dan Colbie Caillat. :p nah kalo ternyata dia cuma nganggep lo gak lebih dari teman/sahabat? bisa-bisa hubungan pertemanan yang kalian bina bisa hancur atau paling enggak berjarak lah akibat "aku suka kamu. pacaran yuk." nah loh.

saya tidak membenci lagu ini. saya malah menyukainya. seperti yang tadi saya bilang, lagu ini (juga pernah) memotivasi saya. he he he. tapi ya tadi itu. saya rasa, enggak semudah dan se-happy ending itu deh. masih banyak yang harus dipertimbangkan toh?

just like they said:

"I love you but it's not so easy to make you here with me."

Wake me up when September ends

"surrender itu artinya beda sama give up. kalo give up, menyerah lalu ditinggalin. tapi kalo surrender, menyerah lalu menerima." by Bondan Rastika.

When my plan's not good as HIS plan

yep,, hari pertama menstrual period saya. tumben banget bulan ini, si bulan datangnya malam hari. jadinya rasa sakit, nyeri, pegal-pegal, dan linu itu muncul hingga dini hari sekarang ini. yah, siang tadi saya sempat mempertanyakan sih, kapan nih saya datang bulan? kok enggak munculmuncul ya? eh sekarang ternyata datang dia. yah, semoga tidak membawa masalah besar. hehe.

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hari ini saya melewatkan kesempatan emas! Oh my my.. sesuatu yang mungkin akan jaraaaaaaang sekali terjadi. tulis enggak ya.. ehmm saya bingung nih.. tulis enggak yaa.. saya akan mencoba menyamarkannya sedemikian rupa sehingga mungkin kamu yang baca akan heran kalau tidak mengerti kata kuncinya. hehe. jadi, ceritanya adalah:

selesai ujian konseling hari ini, seperti biasa saya selalu kembali ke ruang itu. kebetulan handphone saya mati dan saya harus men-charge-nya dong. tapi apa mau dikata, listrik di ruang itu mati. jadi saya harus ke tempat lain untuk men-charge HP saya. ketika saya sedang men-charge HP saya, 2 teman saya sms saya dengan waktu yang hampir bersamaan dengan isi SMS nya: "wi, dimana? cepet ke ruang itu. ada si xxx nih!". pasti terdengar lebay, saya degdegdegan dan gemeteran. saya tidak percaya. ngapain xxx ke ruang itu?? saya langsung telepon temen saya yang pertama kali sms saya. hahaha dan saya MENYESAL! bisa-bisanya saya tidak ada di ruang itu di hari yang sangat langka ini? sedangkan hampir setiap hari saya menghabiskan waktu di ruang itu... ahhhhh..

pelajaran yang bisa saya tangkap adalah:

rencanaku bukan rencana Tuhan :p bagaimanapun juga, saya makin merasa he's not the one.. dan saya mau berusaha jadi secret admirer yang baik saja. (cukup melihat dari jauh) he he he. sungguh pengalaman yang konyol! :p

When I need a miracle

I need a miracle. one sweet miracle. :)

When it is just the way it is

I'm trying to be just the way I am. I'm trying to live this wonderful life just the way it is. I'm trying to be a better person. I'm trying to give my stupid smile everyday in every single things.

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saya mau curhat colongan malam ini. he he he

masih ingat kan cerita di post saya sebelum ini mengenai laki-laki yang menarik perhatian itu? hehe memang sih sekarang enggak ada kelanjutannya sama sekali (baca: saya cuma bisa melihatnya di layar komputer saja :p). tapii ada 3 kemungkinan konyol yang mungkin saja bisa terjadi:

# dia diam saja karena dia tidak tahu apa-apa

# dia ternyata tidak suka wanita ----> ini jahat dan saya enggak mau ini terjadi :p

# dia ternyata sudah mengincar salah satu teman saya yang menurut saya memang tipe yang patut untuk diincar (baca: cantik, feminin, dan semua yang bukan saya)

yaahh apapun itu. laki-laki itu menyita waktu saya sedikit selama dua hari belakangan ini. :p

*senyum senyum centil*

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ah.. tapi sekarang saya maunya dia. enggak boleh ya? sedikit saja deh.. :p

baiklah.. saya tidak mau berharap. tapi gimana dong.. saya enggak bisa enggak tersenyum kalau berhubungan dengan dia...

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trust me, I'm not falling in love with him.

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When I am rambling about life

party all night long

alcohol

cigarette

branded items

latest gadget

fancy make up

fashionista

hedonism

is it really real?

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maybe I envy them. maybe I envy their branded shoes, latest gadget, skinny legs, long wavy hair, party all night long, and the fact that they didn't need to worry about money. yes, maybe I envy them for some reasons.

But, without due respect to "those people", I want to thank the Lord that I don't live like them. Let say, if I am the one of them, I won't be the way I am today. A 20 years old ordinary woman with no ordinary life. I can not say that only my life is hard. Life is hard. Everyone has a difficulty for being who he/she is.

sometimes, I blame my life. I blame my life when my dad passed away. I blame my life when my mom was not home everyday. I blame my life when I have to do my laundry all by my self. sometimes, I blame every single thing happens in my life.

I know I was wrong.

I know, if those bad things didn't happen to me, I won't be a semi-independent person. I won't see with another perspective of life. I won't appreciate this life. maybe I'll hurt my self, even more my family and God.

I still believe that God has a master plan and I am on His demand. and He won't leave me all by my self. Troubles make us stronger.

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When this random words crossed up my mind

sometimes, you just need to say thank you with a tender smile to show how you appreciate an action from others.

When I realized that you could be my so-called soulmate

I met these two boys in this beautiful Sunday evening. So many things we shared about boys, girls, love, hate, friends, life, God, some hypothetically-stuff and so on. I really missed the times like these. We discussed, we argued, we learned, we laughed, we think, and just hanging around. You guys are one of my inspirations :p

three words for you guys: coffee, cigarette, and mate.

thank you boys :)

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anyway, check this picture out:

forgot the title of this mags, but totally got my attention.
this page contains Norah Jones, Jamie Cullum, and John Mayer. Love it! :)

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curious about the title of this post? ha ha ha so do I. but I feel so tired to write down all the words to explain about it. please let me come back to bed now. so just wait :p

ps: it's not another love story. soulmate is not always about love, right?


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cheerio!


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When I do something I like

arghh,, I am still in the middle of the mid-term test. still a little bit MUCH exhausted with all the papers, tests, and tasks. another theories, psycho-test, psychotherapies, interviewing and observing (which still in my "things to do" list), child's development, social psychology and so on. wish me luck, bloggie!

anyhow, I am happy to be a psychology student. there's so many things that I learn about people, why they do this, why they acted like that, and so on. It is hard but I like it. When you do something you like, it will be so much easier to do. I truly believe it.

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on the other side...

I am dying to have:
♥ ONE beauty photo session to complete my CV
♥ ONE new header to redecorate my stupid smile
♥ ONE new glasses because the last one is broken. I blame Beibi for this :p
♥ ONE new job --- really really need this one!

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When a cup of great coffee/caramel-mcflurry made my day

I had a conversation this afternoon with my best friend. we talked about his story, my story, and a little story about my little brother.

anyhow, he made me realize that it's not about "we should do things that we love" but it better be "we should love things that we do".

I mean, sometimes we're doing things because someone (like parents) asked us to. things that we don't really want to do. how about if we change our point of view. try to find the positivity of it and start to learn loving it. remember, things take time. so be patient and stick to it.

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the other thing I want to share is one of my mood-booster recently. so, I proudly present... Palmolive Aroma Therapy Vitality Shower Gel enriched with essential oils of Grapefruit, Orange and Cedarwood. every time I took a shower with this shower gel, I feel so relived and refreshed. I highly recommend this item for you :)

get one of these :p


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When I cried-happily and smiled-sadly

feel bored with the movies on theater lately?
craving something different that can be an inspiration for you?
need some time to flick your deepest heart?
or you just want to cry and laugh out loud at the same time in almost 3 hours?
taraaaa...
the good news is I got the answer..

all you need is "My Name is Khan"
it is a Bollywood movie, and I must say *proudly* that this is a great movie!
it has romantic scene, sweet, sad, touching, anger oh I think it's complete! :p
Bravo Bollywood!

My Name is Khan is telling me that:

"in this world, there's only 2 kind of people. good people and bad people."

I don't want to talk much about it.
help your self and click here for further synopsis, cast, and else.

PS: I shed a LOT of tears from the beginning of this movie, so don't forget to bring tissues or handkerchief :p

When the sleepless night comes

saya baru saja selesai menonton Long Vacation untuk yang kedua kali. pertama kali saya menonton drama asal Jepang ini waktu kelas 5 SD, kalau tidak salah. tokoh utamanya adalah Sena, pianis 24 tahun dan Minami, model 31 tahun. ceritanya sederhana, lucu, dan sedikit manis di beberapa adegan. tidak terlalu panjang juga, hanya 11 episode. soundtrack nya juga bagus-bagus.

anyway, kali ini saya tidak akan menceritakan ceritanya atau di bagian mana yang saya suka. tapi saya mau berbagi sedikit kepada kalian semua yang membaca blog ini sekarang. saya kepikiran satu percakapan di dorama ini dan perkataan seorang teman di kampus.

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percakapan itu intinya mengatakan:
"kamu adalah orang yang baik. sangat baik kepada semua orang. tapi di saat yang sama, kamu meyakiti beberapa orang dengan sangat dalam."

teman saya mengatakan:
"jadi orang itu harus ada jahatnya, jangan terlalu baik sama orang lain. orang baik cepat mati."

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menurut saya, ini menurut saya loh ya,
memang tidak bisa menjadi 100% orang yang baik di mata semua orang. pasti ada orang yang merasa dirugikan.
ada orang yang tidak menyukai diri kita sepenuhnya. selalu ada pro dan kontra. ingatlah nobody's perfect.
dan kita akan sangat bodoh jika bertindak ingin menjadi apa saja asal semua orang di sekitar kita mencap kita sebagai orang baik.
memang benar. jika kita melakukan sesuatu, pasti selalu ada pro dan kontra nya.
mari saya beri satu contoh kasus:

"Sena suka kepada Ryoko yang menyukai Shinji. Shinji sendiri juga menyukai Ryoko, walaupun ia telah memiliki pacar, Rumiko. Singkat kata, Sena membunuh perasaannya dan membuat Ryoko yang pemalu mengatakan perasaannya kepada Shinji. Akhirnya mereka berpacaran. Sena sangat baik kepada Ryoko dan Shinji, bukan? tapi perbuatannya itu sangat membuat Rumiko kecewa dan sakit hati."

seperti itu, tidak akan ada 100% pro ataupun 100% kontra. tidak ada yang 100% benar dan 100% salah. seperti mata uang, semua perkara mempunyai dua mata sisi. tergantung kita melihat dengan sudut yang mana.

dan menanggapi perkataan teman saya, saya rasa, tidak ada salahnya menjadi orang baik. uhm, mungkin lebih tepatnya adalah hidup tulus dan sepenuh hati. ya, tulus dan sepenuh hati mungkin adalah kata-kata yang cocok.masalah umur sudah diatur oleh yang di atas, jadi, kita tidak usah pusing-pusing memikirkannya.

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ingatlah, manusia boleh berencana, tapi semua nya kembali lagi kepada Tuhan :)

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sudah pukul 3:35 AM di sini. jangan insomnia lagi ya, wi! semoga ini hanya efek kebanyakan tidur siang ditambah minum mochacino tadi sore.


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when I start to count 10 things I hate about you

I watch 10 Things I Hate about You this evening. I already watched it for maybe 2-3 times, but I might watch it for many many many times later.

again and again.


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First of all, this is a teen movie. yes, full of dramatic scene. But I found that this is amusing for me. Oh, and I get one of my favorite quote here. you know, the one with "don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want. Go for it."

another memorable script:

Pat: Some asshole paid me to take out this really great girl.
Kat: Is that right?
Pat: Yeah, but I screwed up. I, um, I fell for her.

and I fell for Patrick Verona (Heath Ledger) when he sang "Can't Take My Eyes Off of You" for Kat (Julia Stiles). I guess that Pat did that just for saying "Let me love you." to Kat who madly angry to him. How sweet it can't be? check out the video.


the singing scene


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not only Heath Ledger, this movie also starring Joseph Gordon-Levitt, the Tom Hanson from 500 Days of Summer. But he totally different in this movie. ha ha ha :p

check out the screencaps.

not so Joker's smile

Kat & Bianca. sisters.

first rejection

'accidentally' met in a Club

Tom Hanson *ups I mean Cameron and his friend

the swing scene. I think it's sweet

dancing & singing with that smile

paintball. another way of fun dating.


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and, of course the famous 10 Things I Hate about You's poem,,

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.

I hate it... I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close
not even a little bit,
not even at all.


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you have to watch it.


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when I really had a bad weekend

no electricity, no air conditioner, no internet connection for the day, no water supply, and no mobile phone. what a perfect weekend, right?


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anyway, I am crazy about quotes nowadays. I hope you enjoy it :)


"everything you want is out there waiting for you to ask. everything you want also wants you. but you have to take action to get it" by Jules Renard
&
"we come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly" by Sam Keen


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and I think, the best video for quote of the day is:


Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet


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yes, I just haven't met him yet :)



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I don't want to get back to my blanket. I wish I have a nice dream. good night.



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