maaf, saya khilaf sudah lama tidak ngepost

it's been awhile since my last post. uhmmm apa ya.. banyak banget yang sudah terjadi. tapi karena tidak sempat menulis, jadinya agak lupa deh. coba sekarang saya tulis apa saja yang terlintas yak.

♥ I'm officially a barista.. *girang*

setelah 2 bulan masa probation, akhirnya saya melepaskan juga gelar "Barista in Training" di apron kebesaran (literally) saya. semoga saya tidak sering membuat kesalahan dalam keseharian bekerja saya, atau saya harus di-training ulang.. :p

♥ I have nothing to do with my thesis

skripsi saya terbengkalai. gawat! setiap kali memikirkan skripsi ini, pasti saya langsung sakit kepala. target: tahun 2011 ini lulus. semoga tercapai. butuh semangat! butuh dorongan!

♥ I miss the two-years-ago me

setelah melihat-lihat poto sekitar 2 tahun yang lalu (kira2 semester 4), saya jadi menyadari, kok muka dan perawakan saya berbeda sama yang sekarang ya. saya yang dulu itu rambutnya lebih pendek, badannya agak lebih kurus sedikit, dan jerawatnya jarang. sekarang? beh! saya menggendut dan muka saya berantakan *menangis* gimana dong nih. masa udah ada tiga customer yang menyangka saya kena cacar? huhuhuhu pokoknya harus lebih kurus dan tidak jerawatan!

♥ I'll never fall in love again...

saya termasuk orang yang susah suka ama orang nih. tapi, kemarin sempet loh ada naksir-naksir gitu ama seseorang. *malu-malu centil* *makanya jerawatan kali yak* muahahahahhaa.. yahh intinya kemarin itu sempet lah mencoba "membuka hati", seperti yang selama ini orang-orang suruh. tapi, what do I get? nothing but the hurts. maybe it's about time, wi. be strong. yaa it's not the end of the world!

♥ I miss my campus life

sejak kerja di setarbak, saya jadi jarang banget ke kampus. saya jadi mengesampingkan urusan organisasi seperti rapat-rapat, cari sponsor, cari dana, jualan ini, jualan itu, bersihin ini, bersihin itu, ketemu sama orang ini, janjian ama orang itu. ahhh saya kangen ama semua kegiatan perfaksionis itu.....

When 5 random things come out

before I come back to my warm-cozy-yellow-blanket, I want to share 5 random things that cross my mind for now. I hope it can be another way of apology for not blogging for some time :p

1. since I work at Starbucks Pluit Village as a barista, I scratched my own fingers. There are five scars on different fingers. I hurt my back a little, too. and I don't wanna mention about weariness and lack of free-time. But, I love this job. I have this amazing partners, who help me with all those new things. I learned a LOT of new things. Thank you for the opportunity, Lord!

2. I'm not good on reminding something, so blogging helps me to remain a lot of things. and, I have this agenda, to write down anything such as: weather, my mood that day, other's birthday, anniversary, or else. so, someday I can re-read my agenda and say, "how can I be that way on this day?" :p

3. you know that I am in love with FRIENDS since high school. I can watch all the episode all over again. For now, I am in love with How I Met Your Mother. hehe. It's awesome! It has deeper meaning, in my opinion. but, both of them is legend..ary :p

4. thesis? sucks. let me skip it :p anyway, this week is my last holiday week. I still have two classes for Wednesday and Thursday. yes, I know I can not 'forget' about my thesis. but, you know, every time I open that document, I suddenly feel so sleepy, self talk".. I'm gonna do it tomorrow..", and press the close button :p

5. valentine's day. chocolates, roses, pinkies, heart-shaped balloons, love songs, etc. my favorite love song for all time? uhmmm maybe Just The Way You Are by Diana Krall. what can I say about it? I still got no plans for that day. how about you, bloggie?

ahhh,, I think I'm starting to ramble around. It's time to sleep. have a nighty night, universe!

Wake me up when December ends

It's been awhile since last post.

- first of all: BELATED HAPPY CHRISTMAS, people! Have a merry, wonderful, joyful, blessed Christmas! I spent my Christmas Eve and Christmas Day working as santa. How's yours?

- I want to congratulate Malaysia as the winner or should I say the champion? for AFF Suzuki Cup 2010. Well, TimNas Indonesia (the second place), you gave a great game, really.

- I'm on my holiday, supposedly. Well, I repeat, I supposedly am on my holiday. BUT, I still got sooooooo many things to do, due to that seminar proposal, organizational fund raising (:p), making some money, some of this, some of that.

- do I have new year's resolution? uhmm, lemme think about it and share it some time with you :p hihi.

to sum it all up, December is not my favorite month of the year. sorry, try next year.

Will you miss me?

dari jumat hingga minggu esok, saya akan berada di luar kota, tepatnya di Cipelang, Sukabumi. tepatnya di Taman Nasional Gunung Pangrango untuk psycamp 2010 dengan tema:

F.R.E.U.D.I.A.N

Friendship, Respect, Experience, and Unforgettable Days in A Nature way

beberapa teman panitia sudah berangkat duluan tadi siang. besok sore, saya akan berangkat bersama panitia lain beserta para senior dan peserta 2010. semoga semua baik2 saja ya. tidak terjadi hal-hal yang tidak diinginkan. semoga hujannya tidak turun pas acara. anyway, ada beberapa hal yang harus saya siapkan secara matang, seperti:

- mental. saya sudah harus siapin mental karena besok itu saya panitia bagian acara. saya takut. semua sudah saya make sure sih. tapi kalo di sananya berbeda sama rencana gimana (maklum saya paranoid plus perfaksionis :p). semoga tidak hujan dan rancangan acaranya tidak banyak berubah. kalo sampai berubah, pasti saya langsung panik dan bisa kacau.

- kesehatan. karna saya tergabung di acara, saya harus ekstra menjaga kesehatan agar fit di sana. saya tahu saya tidak tahan dingin, apalagi di gunung. saya sudah persiapan bawa jas hujan (kalau2 hujan kan), sweater tebal punya kakak saya, topi kupluk andalan untuk menjaga telinga saya hangat, kaos kaki supaya kaki saya hangat, sleeping bag, dan hal lainnya yang diperlukan. semoga tidak terjadi hal2 yang saya takutkan. (setelah saya bayangkan saya memakai semua atribut itu, saya seperti.. orang aneh!)

- musik. iyes. saya sudah masukin lagu2 baru ke henpon saya. perjalanan ke Cipelang kan lama tuh, jadi pasti saya akan sangat membutuhkan mereka. apalagi kalau mau tidur, sudah pasti saya akan pasang earphone dan merem.

- peralatan lainnya yang berguna dan mendukung kelancaran acara kemping besok. hehehe

yah kurang lebih persiapan seperti itu deh. hehe doakan ya bloggie, semoga acaranya lancar dan tidak ada kejadian 'aneh' apa2 :p saya akan kangen deh sama kamu, blogie! semoga saja dapat sinyal yang bagus di sana dan saya masih bisa berkoar2 di twitter :p

tunggu ya cerita pasca-psycamp...

anyway, will you miss me? :p

maaf, saya khilaf sudah lama tidak ngepost

hey. sudah lama tidak menulis nih. maaf ya blog. uhmm jadi sekarang saya bingung harus memulai dari mana *seperti biasa xD uhmmm let me see..

terakhir post saya itu tentang sidang seminar proposal kan yak. okei, sidang proposal UTS saya berjalan dengan baik. saya mendapat banyak masukan. setelah banyak potong sana potong sini hal2 yang tidak relevan dengan penelitian saya, dosen penguji saya berkata: "oke, setelah hal2 gak penting itu dibuang, you're ready to go!" ketika saya mendengar ini, saya tidak dapat berhenti tersenyum! :D

uhmm berikutnya apa lagi ya.. ini agak tidak penting sih, hari ini (11-10-2010) Mandy (my beloved blekberi) tepat berumur satu bulan. sudah satu bulan kamu menemani saya loh! saya lebih irit pulsa berkat kamu. smooch*

ohiya, bloggie, kemarin itu saya sempat dapat kesempatan MC formal acara lomba paduan suara dan karawitan jawa loh di kampus. dan saya harus mengenakan kebaya, rok batik, sanggul, dan make up. dengan kustom seperti itu dan lengkap dengan iringan karawitan, saya berasa mau dipersunting raja2 jawa kuno -________- saya harus mengucapkan gelar-gelar tamu kehormatan yang panjang dalam satu napas. wow. it was a very priceless moment! :D

uhmmm ini agak telat sih, tapi gakpapa deh. download yah single terbarunya Bondan Rastika - Not in Love di http://notinlove.bondanrastika.com lansung aja di donlod. dijamin langsung not in love deh! :p

see you, soon!

insomniac

random.

mom's at home.

I got mandy on my hand.

gaining weight. *it's not good, though :p

longer hair. *I bet my mom is really happy about it

I am smiling and counting hours to my 21st birthday.

When the sleepless night comes again

waktu di pojok kanan monitor ini menunjukkan angka 3.47 AM sewaktu mulai mengetik kata2 ini. wah. lagi-lagi begadang. tidak bisa tidur. insomnia. arghhhh.. pedahal sudah berbulan-bulan ini saya dapat tidur dengan nyenyak tanpa harus begadang dengan terpaksa. tidak heran beberapa gejala ini muncul:

- mata saya membengkak seperti habis menangis,

- muka saya luyuh *apapula wi 'luyuh' itu*,

- sepanjang hari menguap melulu,

- rambut lepek dan sulit diatur.

yah kurang lebih itu sih keluhan yang saya alami, blog.

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let me come back to bed, close my eyes, and have a sweet dream.

pleaseeee!

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Late greetings from me

sorry bloggie.. belakangan hari ini saya agak sedikit sibuk. ini daftar alasan saya:

- kemarin itu saya pergi ke Yogyakarta-Bandung naik bus sekitar 5 hari.

- ujian memang sudah selesai, tapi ada hal baru menanti dengan deadline yang tidak santai yaitu: Seminar Proposal (pra-skripsi)

- selama weekend ini saya bekerja di Pekan Raya Jakarta (yang berarti waktu untuk santai-santai leha-leha di rumah makin sedikit)

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yah kira-kira itulah alasan yang membuat saya tidak sempat menulis lagi. pedahal banyak sekali loh yang ingin saya ceritakan. percayalah. BANYAK BANGET! here are some spoilers:

♥ saya lagi stress sama Seminar Proposal saya. saya bingung! ini akan jadi skripsi saya nih!!!

♥ ingin sekali part-time an di jCo atau Starbucks :)

♥ sedang ada Indonesia International Circus Festival di Senayan dan saya dapat tiket gratisnya. tidak sabar menantinya!

♥ hey, I am still into that guy! ha ha. It is HIM who can make my world up and down and up and down and up again :p

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last but not the least:

thank you June for the sweet things. I hope July can bring me more of it! :p

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How to catch a world-cup fever?

another sleepless night. thanks for the long slumber :p

ehmm.. here are some random thoughts about FIFA world-cup 2010:

♥ how to catch a world-cup fever? I'm not a big fans of football. apalagi sekarang jaman piala dunia. seluruh dunia sedang tertuju pada Afrika Selatan. tapi gimana dong, saya tetap saja tidak ikutan tergila-gila dengan FIFA World Cup

♥ apakah setiap kiper itu nomor punggungnya harus "1"?

♥ kapan Indonesia akan berlaga di ajang ini?

♥ kapan Indonesia akan jadi tuan rumah?

♥ apa enggak sakit ya harus ngesot-ngesot di rumput gitu? abis jatuh terguling-guling gitu mereka masih bisa berdiri dan kembali mengejar bola. hebat. salut!

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When it's june

haiii bloggiee..

I miss you so much. I want to tell a LOT to you lately, but I don't really have much time to online. Thanks to the papers, interviews, and so many tasks to do. Like now, I supposed to be already take a bath and prepare for my instruction in Intelligence Test Class. But, I decide to say hello to you :)

okay, since we don't have much time, I'm gonna sum it all up into some points.

♥ remember the guy I told you lately? yes, I am still into that guy.

♥ some friends of mine (not just 1 or 2!!) told me that I looked so fatso in my profile picture of Facebook. So I changed it and I told my self to have a so-called-diet :p

♥ suddenly I realized that if point number 2 works as well, it will bring good impact to point number 1. hope so :)

♥ still, THAT GUY and his things simply cross my mind..

♥ this June, I will have my final exam. but after that, I'll have my long holiday :)

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so, come on, June! Bring some of your fortune tune!

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When I believe in fairy-tale

saya tidak tahu nama laki-laki itu siapa. yang pasti laki-laki itu menarik perhatian para perempuan di ruangan itu, termasuk saya. Duh, gimana ya. badannya tinggi, matanya besar, mukanya manis, mulutnya pas, hidungnya oke, yaa pokoknya semua instrumen itu letaknya pas dan nyaris sempurna.

otak saya langsung berpikir kalau laki-laki itu main gitar pasti akan sangat "WOW". Ha ha ha.. maklum lah, saya termasuk wanita yang suka hal-hal begituan. I do believe that fairy-tale does exist. saya suka hal-hal berbau romantis yang terkadang dikatakan tidak masuk akal oleh teman saya, seperti:

♥ dinyanyikan lagu pake gitar atau piano atau apa saja kek

♥ dibawain bunga di special occasion

♥ malam-malam nelpon cuma nungguin sampai ketiduran

♥ dibawain makanan waktu lagi lemah tak berdaya karena sakit

♥ nge-date berdua melakukan hal2 tak lazim seperti trip ke museum

♥ dinner romantis di tempat syahdulalala~

♥ jalan-jalan gak jelas berduaan

♥ nonton konser seru berduaan

♥ nunggu hujan berhenti sambil ngobrol gaje :p

♥ dan masih banyak lagi di pikiran saya sama seperti yang sering ada di film-film itu loh :p

yah semacam itu. saya punya beberapa tipe dalam mencari pasangan. memang sih tergolong buaaaaanyaaaakk banget dan agak aneh mendetail. seperti:

♥ seiman

♥ tinggi, paling enggak kalau saya pakai heels masih lebih tinggi dia

♥ badannya ideal, tidak terlalu gemuk dan tidak terlalu kurus

♥ manis, mukanya dan perlakuannnya :)))

♥ smart

♥ menghargai orang lain dan sopan

♥ gak neko-neko

♥ pecinta musik

♥ pecinta anjing

♥ good looking with good style

♥ agak rebellious :p

♥ jujur, baik ----> relatif standar lah ya :p

♥ sayang keluarga

♥ dan masih banyak lagi loh... :p

yes, I have to admit that I am a very picky person. dan, setelah saya telaah sedikit ya, lelaki yang tadi saya sebutkan di atas itu (agak sedikit) memenuhi tipe saya. gimana dong ini? ---> ngarep :p

speaking about my ideal one, uhmm yang terpenting adalah chemistry. saya akan tahu kalau dialah orangnya ketika saya merasakannya. gimana ya, saya susah menjelaskannya. I'll know he's the one when I feel it :)

so, what is the conclusion?

I believe in fairy-tale and I'll wait for my prince charming!

When these movies made my days

just want to share these movies with you. enjoy :)

Mary & Max. *yes, with a period in the end

tagline: sometimes perfect strangers make the best friend

verdict: very touchy, sweet, innocent, naive

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Valentine's Day

tagline: a love story. more or less.

verdict: sweet, sweet, sweet :p

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Bangkok Traffic Love Story

tagline: a true story of faith, devotion and undying love

verdict: funny, sweet, charming

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Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist

tagline: loneliness can bring closer

verdict: sweet, silly, funny with great soundtracks

silly/sweet :)

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another movies that I really want to see (again)

♥ Sex and the City 2
♥ Twilight Saga: Eclipse
♥ An American Tail *a very long time ago film, if you have this film, please please let me know :)
♥ Ada Apa dengan Cinta
♥ Tootsie
♥ Titanic
♥ Simpson the Movie

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When counting sheep didn't work as well

another almost-sleepless-night-attack. I've tried counting sheep, but it didn't work.

so I tried to count 10 random things that will make me smile and come back to bed.

10 hal yang jadi pikiran sebelum saya kembali meringkuk dalam selimut hangat saya:

♥ mendengarkan John Mayer di malam hari sambil nge-blog memang membuat rileks.

♥ rasanya saya butuh pijat refleksi. badan saya pegal-pegal khususnya bagian persendian tangan dan kaki. atau paling tidak saya butuh me-time untuk sekedar maraton DVD.

♥ hari ini saya ngebut kerjain verbatim (transkip hasil wawancara) 2 x 15 menit yang selesai dalam waktu 6 jam.

♥ Rabu kemarin adalah hari terakhir Endah N Rhesa main di Loca Kemang dan mulai bulan depan akan digantikan oleh Andre Harihandoyo and Sonic People (gosipnya seperti itu)

♥ saya lagi pengen buat cerpen lagi nih. insight-insight sudah ada, tapi bagaimana mengemasnya dengan lebih baik dan menarik ya?

♥ tadi saya praktek memberikan instruksi alat tes psikologis di kelas Tes Inteligensi dan saya rasa saya cukup grogi. tapi saya dapat 90. terima kasih, Tuhan :)

♥ tugas-tugas akhir semester ini cukup berat dan saya belum mencicilnya sama sekali. oh no! ada tugas wawancara, ada tugas membuat alat tes baru, ada tugas ini, ada tugas itu! wow!

♥ saya penasaran dengan perbedaan gaya penampilan mahasiswa antar jurusan. misalnya Psikologi dan Desain. perbedaan itu bisa jadi masalah outfit, musik, hobi, dan lain sebagainya. saya penasaran dan coba membicarakannya dengan kakak saya yang lulusan desain. tapi hasilnya belum kelihatan. bisakah ini menjadi topik skripsi saya?

♥ saya kangen ama teman-teman SMA saya. kapan kita bisa ketemu? But I really hope next Tuesday I can meet one of them :)

♥ saya rindu mantan saya :p hahaha. yang mana hayo?? bukan rindu gimana sih. tapi gimana ya. susah ah dijelasin di sini. abis saya lihat poto-potonya di salah satu jejaring sosial ter-HIP saat ini, dia.. dia.. ah susah ah dijelasinnya. *lagi centil*

baiklah, setelah menulis sepatah dua patah kata patah-patah, saya jadi mengantuk dan memutuskan untuk tidur.

good night, people :)

When I do something I like

arghh,, I am still in the middle of the mid-term test. still a little bit MUCH exhausted with all the papers, tests, and tasks. another theories, psycho-test, psychotherapies, interviewing and observing (which still in my "things to do" list), child's development, social psychology and so on. wish me luck, bloggie!

anyhow, I am happy to be a psychology student. there's so many things that I learn about people, why they do this, why they acted like that, and so on. It is hard but I like it. When you do something you like, it will be so much easier to do. I truly believe it.

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on the other side...

I am dying to have:
♥ ONE beauty photo session to complete my CV
♥ ONE new header to redecorate my stupid smile
♥ ONE new glasses because the last one is broken. I blame Beibi for this :p
♥ ONE new job --- really really need this one!

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When I become a film reporter

I have 24 titles of DVD to kill my very long holiday. If I watch it one title each day, I will survive from not-so-fun-long holiday. here are the list:

Sex and the City - get carried away

Material Girls - It's a short trip from the penthouse to the poorhouse

the 40 Year-old Virgin

Doomsday - Mankind has an expiration date

Saw IV - It's a trap

A Boyfriend for Christmas - Some wishes do come true

Cintapuccino

Click - What if you had a universal remote that controlled your universe?

The Edge of Love - The only thing more dangerous than war is love

Friends with Money

Chuck and Larry

The Duchess

The House of Bunny

License of Wed - First came love.. then come Reverend Frank

No Reservations - Life isn't always made to order

Cellular - If the signal dies so does she

Raising Helen - Helen help us

Mr. Beans Holiday

I Could Never be Your Woman - Find yourself. In love.

Revolutionary Road - How do you break free without breaking apart?

Wedding Daze - "I Do" takes on a whole new meaning

Good Luck Chuck - Sometimes love blows

Saw V - You won't believe how it ends

Derailed - They never saw it coming


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good luck, then!



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when I sleep earlier than yesterday (yeay!)

I promise to my self to sleep earlier than yesterday, and I guess I surely do make it, right? yesterday I went to sleep at 3:00 AM, now it is 1:30 AM. see? :p anyway, before I come back to bed, I really should do that about 2 hours ago, I want to share my top 5 videos from youtube for this night. and the lucky winners are:

reason: just fly me to the moon. make me smile. :) It's my favorite for now.

Nat King Cole - Fly Me to the Moon

reason: he is a man who can sing, play guitar, and has a beautiful yet sweet smile :p

Gabe Bondoc - Gentlemen Don't

reason: this song remains me of my ex. anyhow, this song is really just the way it is :)

Diana Krall - Just the Way You are

reason: they surely have a really great voice. totally love it!

Broken Strings by James Morrison Ft. Nelly Furtado (Cover) - Gamaliel & Audrey

reason: just fell for his charm :p

Petra Sihombing - Cinta Tak Kan Kemana-mana


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somebody please fly me to the moon. so I can see what spring is like, on Jupiter and Mars.


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cheers :)


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dreams of December

Dreams are necessary to life by Anais Nin

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based on that quote, I start my dreams. ha ha. OK, not "dreams" but "my wish list".. he he. I realize that I don't have (yet) much money to afford my wish list, but based on that quote, I'm allowed to have dreams. you know, dreams are necessary to life (:

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Jamaican Yellow Samsung Corby s3650

I don't have a GSM mobile phone. and I fall in love with this Jamaican Yellow with all its features (2 MP camera, bluetooth, upgradeable). Totally love it! <3

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houndstooth green by kimmy shoe - 169000 IDR

I love kimmyshoe... :) and I think I need a new pair of green shoes. you know, we need a green-er earth, so I need something green for my daily. to support that! (so rationalistic!) :p

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Ruban d'Orange Eau de Toilette

I'm one of ORANGE's fan. so fresh!

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Bloom Mineral Radiant Touch Rosie - 175000 IDR

I have a sensitive face skin. My friend suggests me to use the mineral one and NOT the compact one. I want to try it, but I have to use the one I have now first. the compact one. you know, I want to look fresh and *EHEM pretty :)

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iPod classic black

mp3s, videos, photos.. all in one black gadget. :)

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yellow, green, orange, creamy, and black

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just want to share it with you. or maybe you will get me one of those for a Christmas' gift? :p

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some DIMSUM for our dinner

i found these today and i can't stop thinking about it sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down. you can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel. never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option. i really HEART them!

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my stupid smile, i said so

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seven days to my 20th birthday. i can not think anything about it. err.. actually, i have a LOT of things that i want to share with you, blog. but it seems i don't have any power to write 'em down. errr okei, let me try a bit harder.

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here's my top 5 mp3s that played on my playlist all over again:

Bubbly by Colbie Calliat *in a bossanova tune

Man in the Mirror by Michael Jackson *in a bossanova tune

A Beautiful Mess by Jason Mraz

Come Back to Bed by John Mayer

Sepenggal Kisah Lama by La Luna

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